A piece I recently wrote for www.journeyforearth.com.
What journey are YOU on?
Yashoda, mother to 4 year old Narayan and four teenage step-children, creator of Cosmic Women’s Tribe, yoga/meditation teacher.
At the age of thirty-one becoming a first time mother with my son and acquiring four teenage step-children through my partnership was an awakening experience. To parent a toddler and teenager at the same time has been expansive. It allows for me to see into the future, past and present. I have learned a lot from my partner and all the year’s of his conscious parenting. It has really stretched me out of my comfort zone, belief system’s, pattern’s, trigger’s and allowed for me to let go of what I think I know based off my childhood upbringing, life experience, etc. To stop thinking small and start thinking broad. I silently observed and implemented what was most authentic to my heart. It is ever evolving.
If I could simplify what my journey has been thus far it would be having the awareness of raising conscious children while truly honoring the unique expression of each of their beings. To find a balance of providing wisdom, tools, love, support, guidance and really allowing for the individual soul to unfold before me. I am not interested in creating a mini me. I am interested in creating a dynamic generation that is brighter, more loving, conscious, aware, open, free, peaceful, authentic, deeply wise, etc than I was. True evolution.
As I journey within myself I see that what my heart desires most is freedom from the time bound self, infinite possibilities and genuine, ridiculous happiness. To allow for my karma to be frictionless and to absolutely live my soul purpose/dharma. As a parent I could only hope to give that to my children. To step out of their way so they can live their purpose sooner than later. To show them they are the universe embodied and that everything is possible.
My son is my heart and the absolute love of my life. I know we have traveled through many life times together. I see it in his eye’s when he looks at me and I feel it in my heart. We are so deeply connected. I really honor him as a powerful, all-knowing soul and at the same it is important to me that he learn from a strong, loving, compassionate, conscious, balanced, wise, successful goddess. This inspires me to go beyond myself and be my fullest potential in this lifetime. A walking example of what I preach. Mind you it is a humbling practice that he has inspired me to embody. Motherhood fiercely shows me my depth, best self as well as what absolutely no longer serves me.
I always say that children come to us to teach us real unconditional love and what we have not been able to learn on our own. Finding grace, wisdom, love, compassion, wellness, gratitude, etc is all that I practice in parenthood. My biggest intention as a parent is to really see the big picture; the macro. To parent for the future and be in the now. To trust in the all knowing self and know that each soul that lives in my house with me is bound to me through karma and dharma. All is perfectly, imperfect.